Entering the Next Chapter

So a quick recap of Part 1 :  Last night I went to a group that I had heard so many good things about. It was a little difficult because I felt vulnerable. God was able to teach me, even in my anxious moment.  ---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---   ---  ---   --- I left you all with the quote from Tony Ingrassia, at Outpost Church, " You must give God direct access to the most wounded places of your past, to be healed in the present, so you can have a healthier future."  If I were to sum up what I thought that meant I would have to say that I have to give God the shameful, painful, and darkest parts of my past that haunt me and form who I am today, in order to have a deep healing and in order to go out and show others love and compassion.  When I was first facing the bipolar diagnosis, I was told, "You can't save a person from drowning, if you don't know how to swim." How fitting. I can not go out an help others. I can't love others. I c

What are your 5 greatest accomplishments? 1. Giving birth to Abbie. It was a long and difficult labor taking 46.5 hours. It was all worth it. She is one thing that brings me great joy. She is constantly pushing me to be my best.  2. Turning my life to Jesus. Deciding to give Him control over my life, my bi-polar, my guilt from the affair, and my pain. He never disappoints, I wish the same was true for me not disappointing. 3. Reconciling and regrowing our marriage. We were married as immature, confused, and self indulgent youth. We have been growing into more mature, godly, self controlled adults. We still have a long way to go but it all started with reconciling.  4. Giving birth to Elizabeth. We waited a long time for her but after six years we got to meet her. Looking back, it was all God's amazing timing.  5. Learning how to share my scars. Mainly because I am able to grow closer to God and boast in Him. He has been so good to me. Also, to help others. God has plans f